Everything I’ve done today seems to have broken or screwed up. I’m not a very happy bunny.

For a start this site went berzerk. Totally and utterly broken. And the best bit? I didn’t do anything. Hadn’t touched it, or logged on, in days. After reinstalling WordPress 15 times in an hour, finally everything is back on track except the fact barely any of my posts or pages have tags anymore, or if they do it’s the wrong ones. But I’m working on that as we speak.

What I really should be doing is finishing off my work for the Management Training Program since our next meeting is on Wednesday. Seriously thought I was finished but I’m no where near completion. I can see an all nighter on Tuesday happening.

I went shopping earlier for a few things for T In The Park which is 3 weeks away. So excited. I bought a waterproof jacket (it’s Scotland. That means rain), a pair of brown army-style shorts, bag to keep my tickets, camera and purse in, a million pairs of socks and a new top which is white and lime green with swallows and polka dots. It sounds horrendous, but it really is lovely. Spent more than I meant to, but hey what’s new?

The one good thing that happened today was RTDOBE’s Doctor Who episode. It made me *squee* outloud. A lot. And cry, laugh..generally become a hysterical fangirl again. I knew Bad Wolf before Donna said it, because I am the Bad Wolf queen. I just can’t believe that A) I need to wait til next Saturday to see part two and B) I’ll miss part three because I’ll be at T In The Park.

Expect a full review once I rewatch it…and have some sleep.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life recently; where I am, what I want from life etc. Up until now everything has just been this big game to me - I still feel like I’m 16 years old when the truth is that I’m 22. There are so many things that I should be able to do by now but because I don’t take life seriously I’ve never completed things that other people my age have. The only responsibility that I have is work - counting £1000s of pounds daily and opening or closing the shop. Not really impressive, is it?

Other people my age have been able to drive for 5 years, have their own cars and houses - heck some people I went to school with are now parents, married and in some cases, dead (ok, that’s not what I want from life but that’s where we all end up so I suppose it’s inevitable).

I can’t even manage 4 weeks worth of wages, you can guarantee that by week two I’m all out of money, granted half my wages go straight to my mum to pay back my debt to her but that still leaves me with £100 a week to myself, and it goes all too quickly. I might want to grow up and buy a car and have children (oh, and pay for everything else that goes with them..food, clothes,a crib, crib bedding, toys, pram, high chair) but if I can’t even manage to survive a month when all I have to pay is my bus ticket then what chance do I have?

So I’ve set myself a goal, after having a really long hard thing about this. I’ve managed to cut my smoking down to around 15 a day, but I want to get this down to 10 and then 5 and the none. The money that I save on cigarettes is going into my ISA. Well, most of it anyway. That means that when I pass my driving test, which should be within the next 6 months), I’ll have a bulk of money to either pay a deposit on a new car or buy an older one outright. Failing that, it’ll be used for a deposit on a flat. I’ve given up the thought of living with the boyfriend and I’ve worked out that in one years time I’ll have paid off all my debts so any money I have left I can spend on moving out or a car, or both.

I’m hoping to be living on my own again within 18 months - with or without the boyfriend living with me. I actually managed really well when I moved out of my mum’s house before until I lost my job but I have about 95% job security where I am at the moment and the only place I can go is up - and with that comes better wages.

My plan is that if I write about it here then I can’t give up saving and moving towards my goals - that is the idea anyway. I’m sure I’ll stick to it.

With everything that’s has been happening regarding work I’ve not had a chance to jump online in a wee while. But, for once in my life I actually have things to blog about.

Last Friday the boy and I went out to play some pool in his local pub, usually where we can be found on a Friday night. There were two guys playing pool on the table next to us and we started talking to them, I knew one of them as he’s a local driving instructor and knows the boy’s mum. Anyway, they were laughing at the fact I’m useless at playing pool and decided to teach me properly. Well, I’ve never had such a laugh. They ended up moving every ball over the pockets so that no matter what the shot, I potted a ball - it was excellent!

I absent mindedly asked ‘are you this good at getting people through their driving tests?’ and ended up getting myself a driving instructer. Who, has it happens is pretty damn good!

I had my first, double, lesson with him the other day and it’s amazing, I can actually drive. We did the usual cockpit drill, starting off etc and then I got let free on dual carriageways where I was told to ‘put your foot down til you hit 70 to see what it’s like’, which was scary as hell but so good as I was really scared of going fast, and I’ve mastered hill starts and crawling up/down hills at 5mph, as well as feeling a lot better at going around roundabouts.

I’ve got an other lesson on Thursday evening and I’m really looking forward to it, should be good. Now that I’ve got a good teacher I should be through my test in no time, my confidence is soaring when I get behind the wheel these days!

A few hours ago I opened up my GoogleReader and began reading through the 100+ feeds that I’ve managed to neglect over the course of the past 4 days. I was quite content reading away until I came across an entry from Nettuts.com about creating a layout. I loved the end result of the tutorial and ended up creating my own theme from the tutorial. It’s very similar to the tutorial, but at the same time, it’s not really. Uh, whatever. I love it and it’s staying for the long run (i.e. about 2 weeks).

I’ve got a couple of things still to add, my Reading Library to chane back to running off a plugin rather than a script from another site, and I’m not too sure about the text at the top…too much like a menu, maybe? I don’t know. I’ll see if it grows on me by the morning.

It’s a miracle that I’m still awake, I woke up pretty early this morning because the sun was blaring through my curtains. I’m impressed that the sun was shining on a Bank Holiday to be honest, such a shame that I had to go to work though - I spent half the night staring out the front door wishing I was sitting in a park, eating a picnic and listening to music with my mates! And after the chaos trying to get to work I really wasn’t in the mood to be working at all. I’m off til 4pm on Wednesday and I plan to fill those hours with as much as possible rather than my usual of sitting watching TV or reading a book.

I want to do all my laundry and take old clothes to a charity shop since I’ve got clothes everywhere which I hardly ever wear. And I really need to plant all the bulbs that I bought a few weeks ago in the front garden so that when summer finally arrives the garden will be nice and colourful rather than just grass and a few roses. I like having something pretty to look at when I’m sitting outside reading.

Other than that, I don’t know how I’m going to fill the next two days - I have no spare cash so anything that I can do must be free. If it’s nice again tomorrow I’ll probably take the dog down to the local country park for a while, I’m sure she’ll enjoy it and I could do with the fresh air.

I’ve had three driving lessons with a driving instructor and I seem to think that I am The Stig.

My first lesson was on Tuesday with Red Driving School. I’m intentionally not linking to their website because I wouldn’t recommend them to anyone, there was an obvious reason that there lessons were so cheap - incompetent springs to mind. The instructor didn’t even ask to see my driving license at any point during the lesson, never mind ask things like “read the license plate on X car” to check my eyesight.

Within 10 minutes of being in the car (a new Corsa, didn’t like it much) I was driving down the main road next to my house at 30 miles an hour and going around roundabouts scared for my life. Baring in mind that it was snowing heavily the night before the roads were in a horrendous state. I was petrified, making stupid mistakes like stalling at roundabouts with roadworks on them in between two double decker buses. Not good.

Needless to say, I’m not going back with Red. My mum paid for two lessons with a local driving instructor who is a lovely man, and explained everything to me properly. I’ve also been out with my mum a good few times in the local industrial estate, but for the life of me I can’t find the biting point of the clutch in her car very well, thus the reason we’ve not been out on ‘real’ roads.

Never mind, I love driving more than I ever thought I did. I just need to remember and think sooner and I’ll be fine. I keep forgetting to change down gears when getting to junctions and roundabouts and try to take corners like The Stig.